I love

taking pictures with the Web Cam with Brooke Berthlett!:D

I am.

So, yesterday at quizzing, we talked about how God is the one one who can say, "I am." and mean it like that!

We also learned a quote, John 4:24, "God is the spirit, and his worshippers must worship in grace and in truth, in about five minutes. It was pretty awesome.

But this was more about God than just quizzing. It's about how amazing he is. How much he can change a person. How much he can heal people. How much he loves each and every one of us.

God is so amazing. Like, for example, my friend, Larissa. One day, Larissa was getting ready to go to bed and she told us that she gets this feeling when God is there, and she LOVES that feeling. So, before she went to bed, she prayed to God and asked him to give her more of that feeling.

When she woke up the next day, she had that feeling God was there. She had that feeling ALL DAY! SHe walked into school and told a few of her friends, "JESUS LOVES YOU!" In Algebra, she told the kids in her class, "You know what, God MADE this equation. He MADE it for US to solve it! That's so amazing!" And by the end of class, had about 10 people around her desk working on it with her, because of how energetic and happy she was about it!

That is so amazing and that's just one tiny example of God's amazing work!

Also, a lady at church was in a wheelchair since she was SEVEN! Three weeks ago, the pastor at our church, Dale Kaufman, says, "How many of you believe God can work miracles?" Everyone raised their hands. He says, "I don't think any of you TRULY understand until you see this! Turn around and look to the back of the church!" We all turned around, and the lady in the wheelchair... She was WALKING! With a walker, but still! That is just so amazing, and that shows something! That shows that there is NO WAY God is not real. I just don't understand how people can NOT believe in God. He's AMAZING!

These are only tiny, TINY examples of God and his amazing-ness....
That was a weird word, but it fit perfectly. :)

So, I just think this is amazing! :)

Hmm.

I don't really know what to write about today, which is new. I always can think of something. I don't like this... Hmm...

Light the Night?

Yes, I'll write about Light the Night.

Light the Night is Monroe Free Methodist Church's trunk or treat,which is this Saturday from 6-7:30pm. I have between 4 and 6 people spending the night afterwards! Michaela Brownell (8th grader), Alsiha Blach (sophomore), Ashley Jewell (freshman) and Alyssa Augustininak (freshman) are spending the night for sure, and Abby Yeary(freshman) and Emily Cornell (freshman) that MIGHT be. It's going to be so much fun! :) But, I do think it's funny how I'm a sophomore and I only have 10 friends that are sophomores, too, at the MOST,and almost all of my other friends are freshmen. I also have... about 10 eighth graders as friends. I really don't care, though. I just naturally click with freshmen, especially since I'm supposed to BE a freshmen. And I don't really like most of the sophomores. A couple of my sophomore friends don't even go to Monroe; they go to Milan.

What's funny is that about half of my friends are in my youth group!!! Katie (freshman), Ashley (freshman), Abby (freshman), Emily (freshman), Sara (freshman),  Michaela (eighth grader), Harry (eighth grader), Isaac (eighth grader), Brittany (eighth grader), Alan (eighth grader), Ethan (eighth grader), Larissa (eighth grader), Alisha (sophomore), Alyssa (sophomore), Mary (sophomore), Chris (sophomore), Jordan (sophomore) and Rob (senior).

I love these people to Death<3 :)

I only have like MAYBE ten friends outside of youth group. Destiny (freshman), Brooke :) (freshman), Kayla (sophomore), Justice (freshman), Katie (freshman), Alleana (senior), Makenzie (sophomore),..... I can't really think of any more.... Obviously, the majority of my friends are in my youth group. That makes me happy:) Haha!

99 Things to Do Before I Die

1. See Taylor Swift in concert.
2. Go to Paris.
3. See an eclipse.
4. Write a song.
5. Write a book.
6. Go to all 7 continents.
7. Randomly laugh as someone passes you, to freak them out.
8. Put leftovers together to make something.
9. See a sunrise.
10. Go to the Super Bowl.
11. Throw a huge party and invite everyone of my friends.
12. Swim with dlophins.
13. Learn a foreign language and go somewhere that speaks it.
14. See a taping of a TV show.
15. Plant a tree.
16. Learn how to play bass guitar.
17. Learn how to play drums.
18. Take a road trip from coast to coast.
19. Sleep under the stars.
20. Go to Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
21. Go to Times Square for New Years.
22. Give anonymously to a charity.
23. Create a website.
24. Memorize enough digits of pi to be impressive but not weird.
25. Get front row seats to a professional sport game.
26. Take a photography class.
27. Take 50 REALLY good pictures.
28. Submit applications to THREE modeling places...
29. And get a call back.
30. Go to a movie premiere.
31. Get 10,000 subscribers on a blog.
32. Learn to say hello in 50 languages.
33. Learn sign language.
34. Go to Niagara Falls.
35. See the Northern Lights.
36. Form a band.
37. Go to the Amazon Rainforest.
38. Go to Mexico for Day of the Dead.
39. Climb the Statue of Liberty.
40. Visit all fifty states.
41. Live in a foreign country for a year.
42. Solve a Rubik's Cube.
43. Make a stained glass window.
44. Learn how to make candles.
45. Read every book by an author.
46. Stop biting my nails.
47. Help build a Habitat for Humanity house (especially since my mom works there!)
48. Become a middle school English teacher.
49. Make over 100 YouTube videos with friends.
50. Adopt a kid.
51. Have at least four kids.
52. Go to a very famous designer's fashion show.
53. Be a model for a famous designer.
54. Get two tattoos.
55. See the Hollywood sign in California.
56. Read the entire bible.
57. Take a photo every day for a year.
58. Go to the Mall of the America.
59. Carve my name into a tree.
60. Win the lottery.
61. Own a Jeep.
62. Meet Johnny Knoxville.
63. Jump in a pool fully clothed.
64. Have a picture I took put on a Jones creme soda bottle.
65. Put dish soap in a fountain.
66. Go to fashion week!
67. Get married on a beach.
68. Watch a sunrise&sunset in one day.
69. Go barefoot for a day.
70. Dye my hair pink.
71. Be an extra in a movie.
72. Own a full wall of books with a ladder that slides across it.
73. Take and get a picture of lightning.
74. Kiss someone at midnight on New Year's Eve, in NYC.
75. Get a pet penguin.
76. Finish a coloring book.
77. Name a star.
78. Go in a life-size hamster ball.
79. Go to SAU.
80. Push every button in an elevator.
81. Get on Cash Cab.
82. Glue money to the floor and watch people try to pick it up.
83. Go to Hard Rock Cafe.
84. Go on a cruise.
85. Go to Disney World.
86. Go to Disney Land.
87. Fly first class.
88. Hug a tree.
89. Visit the Eiffel Tower.
90. Own a pair of shoes that cost over $200.
91. Send a message in a bottle.
92. Tie a note to a balloon&let it go.
93. Drive a sports car.
94. OWN a sports car.
95. Throw a surprise party.
96. See the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade.
97. Stay at a 5-Star hotel.
98. Visit Jamaica.
99. Have a song I wrote be sung by a professional.

Credits: http://abundance-blog.marelisa-online.com/2010/05/21/bucket-list-ideas/
http://www.sharebuckets.com/search-bucket-list/

Problems.

I don't know what to do.
I have a boyfriend, Justice.
But, I like another guy.

Me and Justice have dated on and off for a year and a month.
But now we have nothing to talk about, I can't talk to him outside of school, since I don't have a phone, and things just aren't the same between us anymore after dating&breaking up SIXTEEN times.

This other guy, I've known for three years, been friends with him for one.
He's really cute (my boyfriend is NOT).
He's popular&a football player.
And, my friends actually like this guy, unlike my boyfriend, who just about everyone hates!

But I really don't know what to do, because I love Justice! We've had so many good times together!
And the other guy, he just got out of a relationship that's been off and on for a few months.

I have no idea what to do.

JCT.
AMH.

Which one to choose...

Good moods, good friends, great guy.:)

I've been in amazing moods lately:)

I love my best friend, Katlyn Marie Farris (or Katie).
She walked to my house this morning as usual, wearing a very bright yellow shirt, skinny jeans, and flip flops, but also carrying a phone, which is not normal. I found out on our walk to the bus stop it was Antonio's, her boyfriend's. I also found out some good news:) She was texting Justice, my ex I still like, and he was talking to her about how he felt. She showed me the first text.

"i need to talk to someone and you're the first person i thought of. i miss brooke and i started crying at the dance cause i seen her and she looked so beautiful and i felt so bad for hurting her and i want her back."

I almost started crying because I also started crying at the dance when I saw him because I missed him and I thought he hated me.

Basically, Katie talked to both of us all morning and after we talk about it together, we're going to try dating again. :D I miss him

Please Read! Final submission idea??

I wrote something similar to this last year, but it's getting close to the one year anniversary, so I think I might re-write it, make it better, and use this... But it's just a possibility.::

November 4, 2009. One of the worst days of my life. Maybe even the worst. I lost someone who meant so much to me that day. My grandpa, Irvin Trouten. He was probably one of my favorite people. I could tell him anything, I loved hanging out with him, even though it's "weird" for kids to actually like to hang out with their grandparents. He was diagnosed with lung cancer in January '09. He passed away on November 4th. I miss him so much. I remember that whole day...

My dad, stepmom, (at the time) four year old sister, and I had lived in a trailer off of Dunbar, but they couldn't afford it. So, we moved in with my stepmom's sister, Aunt Stacie. Her daughter, Amber, & I are like best friends. We are only two months apart, so we're very close. It was a Tuesday night (the 3rd) and I had went upstairs after taking a shower &laid down on Amber's floor and covered up with several blankets, since Amber keeps her room absolutely freezing. We talked for awhile and finally, at about 11pm, fell asleep. It wasn't long though, before my stepmom, Tracie, came upstairs and pulled my blankets off me.

"Come downstairs and lay down by your sister. Your dad and I need to leave for awhile."

"What?? Why?? What time is it?"

"1 am."

"You're kidding. I'm going back to bed," I said, rolling over and covering back up. Yet again, she pulled my blankets off.

"Ughhhh. Whattttt?"

"It's Papa." At this, I got up and grabbed my pillow and blankets. I walked downstairs like a zombie and finally made it to the bed. I fell asleep when my head hit the pillow. The last thing I remember seeing is my sister holding on tight to her Pikachu pillow.

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I woke up to voices near me. I opened my eyes and looked at my dad's alarm clock. It read 9:08 am. Why am I not in school?! Oh God.... Please don't tell me....I couldn't imagine why I wasn't in school. I felt a couple tears come to my eyes. I bit my lip so they wouldn't fall. I looked at my sister. During the night, she had let go of Pikachu, who was basically her best friend. I should've taken that as a sign...

I rolled over and looked around to see who was there. Only my dad and Tracie. My dad's eyes were as red as blood, assumingly from crying. This just made me want to cry... I looked at Tracie and her eyes were bloodshot. Oh God, please don't let it be what I think... My dad looked up and seen me with my eyes open.

"Baby girl,I have some bad news..."

I closed my eyes.

"Don't tell me, I already know."

Good moods.:)

I have no idea why, but for the whole last two and a half weeks, I've just been in an amazinggg mood. I've been really happy and I feel like excited almost, but I don't really have anything to be excited for, except Homecoming, but I don't think it's that, because I hardly think about Homecoming... I have been reading my Bible and praying a lot more though.:) Maybe that's why... I don't know though... I love my life right now, though. I have amazing friends, I just had an amzing party, & it's really weird because usually I'm depressed for weeks after a breakup, but I'm even happy me&Justice broke up. But I do like three new guys.:) Harry Ervin (Milan- 8th grade), Rob Collins (Monroe- 12th grade), and Avery Harrell (Monroe- 10th grade). I like all three of them, but I don't know who I like the most:/ But Rob has a girlfriend, Harry's younger, and Avery is two of my friends' ex-boyfriend...:/

Blahhh! I don't know what to do or who I want and just.... Blah.